Have you ever felt like you want to give up and be in a far place so you could escape everything and everyone? I just have the same feeling. It feels like giving up is easier than fighting. It feels like hiding is the best escape to the problem. But we both know, it doesn't help at all.
This is the season of my life where I could feel the pressure underneath. I had a hard time sleeping at night peacefully. I fell asleep crying. I cried mercy and favor to God. I’m asking God to take me away from this situation. But I was rebuked by the thoughts that I have. Didn't Jesus tell us to take heart? He has overcome the world. Didn't the Lord promise that He will never leave us not forsake us? Didn't the Lord plan to prosper us and not to harm us? How could we feel so powerless and hopeless? I appreciate how Apostle Paul answered this. (As if He’s talking to me when he said it.) We felt like we were doomed to die and saw how powerless we were to help ourselves, but that was good, for then we put everything into the hands of God, who alone could save us. (2 Corinthians 1:9 LB)
This painful season is also the season where I depend of God and not on anything else.
When nobody cares, I know God does. (1 Peter 5:17)