No one can fake it

I know nothing can comprehend from the faith I have from the very beginning. To believe the existence of God even I cant see him. To hold on to my hope even when everything seems so hopeless. To love, to never run out of love because my God, the source of all love, never fails to sustain me.


If grace is an ocean, we are all sinking. Faith doesn't work that way. Grace is given. Faith on the other way, we strive for it. Must see the american strat to know it all.

Out of the blue

The adversity reveals your character. It is revealed on how you will respond when someone criticizes you. It is revealed when someone offends you. When someone does wrong with you. You are not you when you're angry. You can say things you didnt mean. So you better watch your word. Or better get selection dept56 here.

Things I'm thankful for about my job

It's been a year since I left the accounting industry and tried what's consultancy services could offer. And as I reminisce the past year, I listed down what makes me grateful about the career I chose: 
Taken during my first day in APPTech, Oct22013
1. Field work - when I s tarted working in 2011, I know in my heart I'm not the 8-hr office girl type. I got bored staying in one place. Its an answered prayer for me to have a job where I was able to travel while working and be with the places I've never 
been.  


2. Meeting New People - Or should I say meeting big time business professionals. Because of my 

 job, I met a lot of people who were not just an ordinary employees of the company but the owner
 itself or someone equivalent. Some of them become my mentors and so I can 
dial their number if I need help and vice versa.
3. Decision Making - I am overwhelmed every time the manager, or any officers of our 
clients ask my opinion or resolution over the the issues they've encountered. It feels 
like my decisions are relevant to them and that’s wow.  
4. Cool Colleagues - I need to be honest that one of the major reasons why I love where I am now is 

that, I am surrounded with people who push me to become better than I was
yesterday. Our dev team who taught me to become detailed in discussing an issue. Our  very own service team help me a lot in the implementation. And I am glad that green  jokes are not part of the any conversations in our office. That’s rare.  
5. Continues Learning - Above all things, this is why am happy and contented with  where I am. I can still recall my interview day when I was asked why I want to be part  of the company. The very first I said was “I want to learn more”. My work isn't routinary. It challenged me everyday. As I meet new people in different places, I was
able to learn from them. I know that they are bigger, smarter, richer than I am. But I am truly inspired by how John Maxwell discuss the importance of people ahead of me  “The best place to learn is where others are ahead of you”  

 If something needs to be done, do it right as you would if the Lord we're standing by your side. If you don't have time to do it right the first time., how will you have time to redo it?-Dr. Lucio Tan 

To God be the Glory!! 

And I'm dealing with

Its really hard for me to admit what I'm dealing with myself right now. While being prideful and selfish is easy to acknowledge, I'm having a hard time admitting that I am insecure. 

I seldom talked to God for the past days, acting like a rebellious daughter and being so 
jealous about everyone around me. I knew myself very well that I always see the brighter 
side of all things. But with what's happening now, I'm almost freaked out because I am left behind.

Left behind. I guess that what's make  me feel insecure. Its when the world turns so fast and I was there at the bottom. Its when everyone is becoming busy and I'm just waiting for them to pick me up so I can fit in. Its when I can't catch up things because everyone is in the top. 

I know that these things were just lies created inside my mind. Some might sound true. 
Some are pure lies.  And it becomes  bigger than what actually it was until I woke up being 
consumed by it. Wrong move. But no matter how I defined it as big as I thought it was, I  know one thing is sure. My God, who created the heaven and earth, is much 
bigger than all my insecurities combined.

I am known for being optimistic. People around me  admire me for being positive at all time. Little did they know, I am swallowed by my negativity most of the time. But I keep what's 
written in Philippians 4:17 in my heart "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, what ever is lovely if anything is excellent or praiseworthy think about such thing". 
 
Thinking I'm left behind is just a lie. God, who said He Has a great plan for me, plans to 
prosper me and not to harm me is a faithful God. Who is always true to all His promises. 
And I believe, where I am today is still part of his plan for me. Whether I'm least or I'm on 
number one.  

This is what I'm dealing with myself now. And dealing with my insecurities isn't an over night process. I could feel secured today and might feel be insecure again tomorrow. But it makes me glad that I'm not doing this alone because God is at work changing me glory to glory. 

And there comes grace. 

Definitely.
Last december, my best friend gave me a necklace which I used to wear everyday. I like it when I see it,  because I remember her thoughtfulness for giving me that. 

For the next christmas, (this year of course) I want to have a new necklace again. I might look on the a gift for her too at its lowest price about the available jewelry. How about you? Do you want to receive jewelries as a gift too?

What I’ve learned from playing Clash of Clans


I attended the kick off meeting for my new client last day. As we went along the meeting, the owner of the business (he’s running a family business in retailing industry) mentioned that, he learned a lot of strategies from playing an online game Clash of Clans, which I used to play. 

Im not a 24/7 player of any games, specially the one that can only be played using an android phone 
because I dont own one. But my colleagues influenced me to play COC and now Im hooked. 

There are things changed after I started playing COC, like the number of hours I read a book 
diminished because I spent more time playing than reading, it eats my time, but there are a lot of lessons I learned from playing. 

The Defense and Resources - tips from my co-players: Protect your defense first, before protecting 
your resource. I dont know how it makes me feel ironic about it. Because the only way I could have my defense is through the resources I have. So If I protect first my defense, and neglect my resources, I couldn’t have produced my defense. I guess what’s they’re trying to say is to maximize my 
resources, and once it is established, I should protect my defense so I will not be easily attacked. How could we relate that in real life? Know and value your source. The source of your strength, your joy, your passion, your great love; God. And then protect your standard in life because that will make you strong when the enemy attacks. 

The Troops - I remember my conversation with my brother when he asked me why he could not get 
the ununsed/undefeated troops back after the battle. During my first match, I asked the same question. I couldn’t get any answers except for the joke that once we've let go of something, we couldn't 
never have it back. Funny as it is. You've invested time, effort, money to some people in your life, you let them go. And as much as you want them back, you cant. And you move on. But the good thing about letting them go, you learned to do better next time. 



God's Not Dead


Oh It's been a while since I last posted a movie review. I think there's none for this year yet, so this would be my first entry. I am grateful to have "God's Not Dead" be reviewed. 

Synopsis: 
Presentday college freshman and devout Christian, Josh Wheaton (Shane Harper), finds his faith challenged on his first day of Philosophy class by the dogmatic and argumentative Professor Radisson (Kevin Sorbo). Radisson begins class by informing students that they will need to disavow, in writing, the existence of God on that first day, or face a failing grade. As other students in the class begin scribbling the words “God Is Dead” on pieces of paper as instructed, Josh find himself at a crossroads, having to choose between his faith and his future. Josh offers a nervous refusal, provoking an irate reaction from his smug professor. Radisson assigns him a daunting task: if Josh will not admit that “God Is Dead,” he must prove God’s existence by presenting well-researched, intellectual arguments and evidence over the course of the semester, and engage Radisson in a head-to-head debate in front of the class. If Josh fails to convince his classmates of God’s existence, he will fail the course and hinder his lofty academic goals. With almost no one in his corner, Josh wonders if he can really fight for what he believes. Can he actually prove the existence of God? Wouldn’t it just be easier just to write “God Is Dead” and put the whole incident behind him? GOD’S NOT DEAD weaves together multiple stories of faith, doubt and disbelief, culminating in a dramatic call to action. The film will educate, entertain, and inspire moviegoers to explore what they really believe about God, igniting important conversations and life-changing decisions. (source)

The movie 
The movie was great. Call me bias for rating the movie a great one. But since I seldom see christian movies on big screen, I appreciate it all. And God's Not Dead is a must see movie. 




This scene actually made me cry. I heard a lot of stories about followers of Christs who have been persecuted by everybody, but I guess, the most painful persecution a Christian could experience is when he is persecuted by his own parents.  And I admire the girl on this story. She boldly told her dad that she will not declare any god because there's no other God than Jesus, her Lord and Savior. And this reminds me of what's written in the bible.  Whoever acknowledges me before me, I will also acknowledges him before my father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will also disowns him before my father in heaven. Matthew 10:32-33


How far would you go…to defend your belief in God?

Davao Adventure


I was assigned in South Cotabato for 14 days. And my adventurous heart wanted to travel the places near the City. I attended sunday service in Victory Gensan. It's an hour travel from South Cotabato. First Weekend was wonderful. I was able to meet law students from VCF and be friends with them. I was travelling back to South that day when I saw a bus with a signage of Davao. I asked the client how many hours will take me to travel in Davao. Four hours they said. I informed them that I want to go there on the next weekend and explore the City but they're hesitant to let me. I know they're concerned about me and they didnt want me to go alone. Good thing, My officemate. Bryan, was deployed in Davao on the same weekend. Galing Diba?

Life is here. That's Davao tag line. I couldn't recall how many times Bryan mumbled that if there's a place he wants to settle in, it'd be the City. It's cool. Less stress. Life is there. Hmm. I couldn't disagree anymore.

What's in Davao?
Samal Island. The island is great. No doubts.
The Eden Paradise
What I like about Bryan is that he has the same adventure cravings as mine. He planned our activity for the weekend and he included going to the said Paradise. The most unforgettable weekend of my life happened in Davao. Who would forget riding in bicycle while you're hanging? It was awesome. If you will visit Davao, please do visit Eden Paradise.

Thank you to my Tour Guide. Til our next Travel Adventure.
PS
We also attended a sunday service in Victory Davao. It's our first time to go to church together. 

San Sa Gensan?


July 30. My First Mindanao Deployment.
I myself love travelling. For the past 2 months, I didn't have new projects yet (I am SAP Consultant by the way) And I asked God about it. My officemates we're all busy while I'm just waiting for my project to start. I dont want any idle moment anymore. I was accompanying one of our consultants in her training when I received a call from my boss informing me to prepare for my trip. I was chosen to travel in Gensan. My heart jumped. It'll be my first plane trip. My heart filled with Joy.

Fast Forward
Aug 12. Meeting after my flight back to Manila.
14 days have passed. 14 days being alone. I tried writing a blog when I was there. But my mind was too consumed with fear ( yes, felt too scared being alone) And I was mentally tired. I experienced working from 6am to 10pm. That's equivalent to 16 hours. Meaning almost 2 days. And I am too excited to go back in Manila because I miss my family, and I dont want to be alone anymore. I hurriedly attended a meeting right after my flight. Hmm Consultant life.

Take it Slow. The 14 days.
I am honestly glad that I traveled in Gensan. It's one of a kind experience. I was able to meet new people. Be in a new environment. Rode a plane. Ate fresh fruits every morning. Learned different dialects. Created a new circle of friends. Experienced commuting in a new place. And to convinced myself that I wasn't afraid at all.


Highlights of the 14 days





Bottom Line
Everyday, I keep telling God how thankful I am that He brought me to Gensan. It's more than what I've asked and even imagined. It's my faithgoal to travel. And I didn't actually imagine that I'll be riding a plane, travelling to Mindanao. I am thankful to God how He thought me to depend more on Him. And I thank God for His protection. 

Letter to God