I am in trouble. literally. My mind is in trouble. I can not think what are the things to be considered first. I often say Im tired. Tired of thinking how to fix things, how to solve problem and how to keep my heart at peace. Im tired. Physically. Emotionally. Mentally. But I keep on strengthening my spiritual body. I am crying to God if He can take this pain away, If He can at least, give me peaceful mind and heart.
I really appreciate God this week, how He comforts me and how He reminded me of his love. God said, "it is not a high paid job that will save my family's finances. It is not a new environment that will restore my relationship with everyone". He reminded me that it will not me, who fight in this battle, but it's Him. It is not my own ways of getting things well done. But it is His job.He reminded of how He provides in all of His creations, I am reminded of how his grace works. His grace is more than enough to give me peace. And I am reminded of how Christ conquered everything for me. I shouldn't be worried. Financial Provision? Relationship Restoration? Peacful heart? God is the source of it.
I will listen to what God the LORD says; he promises peace to his people, his faithful servants— but let them not turn to folly.
I learn to trust God more.
But I still need to find a new job. hihihi